I feel your pain. I saw your other post. I have been married for 12 years, husband had porn addiction throughout entire marriage. We have two children (5&7 now) and I thought the addiction was under control, but was ongoing while we had children too. My only advice is from my experience, do not continue ttc if current husband is not willing to get help for this or doesn't see it as an issue for your relationship. Unless you are ok with having this ongoing throughout raising your children. If he is willing, ask yourself if you are ok with slip ups throughout the journey.